I sat in my new reading spot in the corner of our living room looking at my phone. I checked Facebook and noted a status from an acquaintance who I am “friends” with. She made mention of 10 cop cars at The Grand 16 and asked if anyone knew what was going on. Someone commented, “shooting.” My heart skipped a beat and I thought “Is that the theater by us?”
I went to ask Tim, “Is the 16 the theater by us?”
“No, I think that’s the other one.”
“You sure? There was a shooting.”
I kept close watch on my feed, updating as more details came about.
No, as a matter of fact it WAS the theater, barely a mile from our home. “Around the corner” from us.
Way too close for comfort. My heart sank into my stomach.
By the next morning it was reported that two women were dead and the shooter had killed himself. I sat in my office, in my house, not far from where those women were killed and I cried. I cried after reading their names and seeing their beautiful faces.
We are so desensitized to so much of what happens in our world and country today, except when it’s practically in our backyard. I admit that. Because I know it’s true. And my heart can only take so much bad news.
I don’t know why that man did what he did. I’m not posting to debate gun laws or mental illness or anything about his idea of “God”.
I’m posting because I am heartbroken for this community and so many others. For the loss of life and innocence.
Lafayette has been my home for over 6 years now and though I do not claim it as my true home, I claim it as my adopted one. I have come to know the people here quite well and our family is now rooted in this community through our friends, faith and an appreciation for the culture and people. And my daughter, my baby, was born here. She may someday call this place her “hometown”.
I have been in Jillian Johnson’s shop several times. I may have sat in the same seat in the movie theater where she was. I could have been there that night. Or someone else I knew personally.
Of course I do not want to live my life in fear but I gotta tell ya, it’s getting harder and harder not to. This man was not from here. He could have gone anywhere and shot anyone. But he somehow chose a place that was so very close to my home and the home of many I know and love. His actions are the reason our community lost two beautiful, bright stars and why my kids had to watch me physically react as we drove by the movie theater and I couldn’t help but notice the parking lot full of news trucks. I broke down. I couldn’t help myself.
What do I tell my children? That the “happiest place” in America is no longer? No.
Despite what happened here a few days ago, I will stand behind the truth that Lafayette is very happy place. No stranger with a gun can change that. I am terribly saddened for this community. And all the communities and cities across our nation dealing with hard things right now. Which is all of them since so many homeless grace our streets and so many political wars are being fought.
I don’t know why we are met with theses obstacles of faith. And I don’t mean just religious faith. I mean faith in humankind. Faith in anything.
I have no answers to why or what is going on. I posted on FB on friday that we have to resort to love or all is lost and I stand behind that statement, now and forever.
LOVE is the thing. I believe in the words, LOVE is the answer. That may sound too simple to some but think about it. For just a minute.
I wish all of this could go away. That we could rewind and it never happened and that I and you and everyone could walk into that movie theater tomorrow with full and complete confidence that nothing like this would ever take place again. But we cannot.
Instead, we must carry on with LOVE, for those who died and for ourselves. This life is precious and unpredictable and so many people are hurting in ways we have no idea about. The best thing I can do is send out love in some way to all those around me and to anyone I encounter.
Because that is what I know to do.
#LafayetteStrong
I did see you mention this on Facebook and sending so much love your way right back at you. Seriously, so scary when it happens so close to home and can tell you that earlier in the year, I experienced something similar when the young NYPD cop that was shot and killed actually lived in my hometown, having gone to school in our district and his funeral was in our local church. Definitely was so very surreal and even now I can’t help but think about it. Again so sorry this happened to close to home to you and thinking of you now.
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I was sitting at a baseball game in Houston..facebooking about the game when a post came up about a shooting in Lafayette. My heart stopped. I have other friends there as well and my boyfriend lives in Carencro so its slowly becoming a community I know and love. As time went on and the identities of the women killed were revealed, I discovered the younger girl was a cousin of a good friend soon to be husband. I know we get desensitized by so much violence these days but the closer it hits home, the more real it becomes. The woman with the shop sounds like a one of a kind gal…I’ll say prayers for both women’s families as they struggle thru this but also for your city for now is when Community becomes important.
xo
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I am very sorry that this happened again and so very close to your home.
It is a daily occurrence and it breaks my heart.
You are absolutely right though, love is the answer.
I hope the people of your community will come together and truly be #LafayetteStrong.
I wish you peace.
Thank you so much. And yes, this community has come together but I hate that it had to be for this reason…
Peace with you as well…
This is so disheartening… devastating. I don’t understand why this is becoming such a common occurrence. I don’t understand why we lose beautiful people to such violence. I won’t ever understand.
However, you’re on to something here. Love and grace trumps all. I find in the face of love and tragedy, my heart feels like it’s going to explode with the love I wish to share and express. I hope you feel some of that love over the next while.
Wishing you peace, prayers, and most importantly, love.
xoxo
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Thank you so much, Jennifer. Grace too, yes. We all need that as well…
XO
Elaine, this is just heartbreaking for you and your family. I can’t imagine how it’s affected everyone around you. You’re absolutely right, we need to focus on love. Love for each other, love for those we don’t know, love for those we may never know. Stay strong, and I hope that it’s getting a little bit easier every day.
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Thank you Leslie. This community has rallied and it’s been amazing to watch but I hate that something like this had to spur it.
XO
I am heartbroken for you and your community. xo
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I’ve been thinking about you and your community. This is so very sad and heartbreaking. And, it’s so hard to decide what to tell our kids and what is going on.
I hope that your community is pulling together (from what I’ve seen they are) and focusing on the poor victims and their families.
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This community is very strong and could have never imagined anything like this happening hear but unfortunately so place is completely safe. 🙁 Thank you for the thoughts.