The last couple of years have given me pause in many ways. I’ve taken time to self reflect and look inward. A LOT. While doing so I have also felt the need to lean hard on the God in which I believe. And when I say “lean hard” I mean pray harder than I ever…
I Trust in You
The first word of this post should be Jesus, with a comma after it. So, the post should really be titled Jesus, I Trust in You. I didn’t use that title because I want people to be open to reading this and I am guessing there are many people that would not if I put the name…
Clarity
When I was a teenager I would sit on the floor in my bedroom, right behind the door. There was a full length mirror on the back of my bedroom door and while sitting there, I would stare deep into my own eyes. I would do this for a while, until I got this strange feeling, like…
Scars of the Past
His arm has two scars. I sort of know the story of how they came to be but I did not know him then. He fell. He fell years before I did. He has those scars as well as many others that you cannot actually see. Most of mine stay hidden as well. They are tucked…
Dependent on Him
I used to think that my happiness depended on other people. I would get so upset and irritated when they did not act the way I wanted or expected them to. I will be completely honest, I wanted everyone in my life to fit inside some perfect little box, or imaginary boundaries of behavior that…
Just BE
For several years now, may of us bloggers have chosen a “word for the year”. A couple of years ago my word was Brave and that was a really good year for me in the sense that I was brave in putting my creative self out there, especially the writer side of me. I feel like that could…
Rare Bird, A Book Review
I started reading Anna’s blog, An Inch of Gray, after her twelve-year old son Jack was lost in a freak flash flood. I was directed there by another blogger, I cannot remember who. It could have been from a tweet or a mention on their blog, the details are sketchy. I do however, remember the pain I…
Believing
I have been listening to the Christian station while tooling around in the van quite a bit lately and I started to wonder why I was suddenly drawn to this music… Well, the battery went out in my van a few weeks ago and Tim quickly installed a new one while at a gas station…
In the Silence / Miss Elaine-ous Monday
After mass last Wednesday we all walked up to get our ashes and then those of us who wanted to, also approached the altar and randomly chose a piece of slate with one word on it. The week before our priest had “warned” the congregation that these would be available and that each word represented…
Almost a Year…
It’s been almost a year since we packed up our home and headed for our new one. I had memories today of being big and pregnant while dealing with boxes and foundation problems and a constantly traveling husband. The week before we moved was one of the hardest weeks of my life. Really. Before we…