I hate walking by the mirror in my bedroom. It’s big and shows all of me. I am big too. The voices as I walk by go something like this: “You are fat. Sure, go ahead and suck in your gut but then when you push it out again you’re just going to see that…
Great Expectations…
I have so much fun making new blogging friends and in the last few months I have come to know a wonderful new friend here on the interwebs, Greta. I cannot remember exactly how I came across her blog but I knew pretty quickly from her humor sarcasm and sweetness and photos that I would…
Tired.
One tear falls down my cheek as I look over at my almost empty wine glass. I decide if I even want the last sip and my brain says, “why waste it?” So I grab the glass and let the rest of the red liquid slide down my throat. I’m tired. If I looked in…
Pitter Patter
When we moved into this house a little over 3.5 years ago I was not very happy to be here. I could not seem to figure out all the different, crazy light switches quickly enough and kept thinking that the one in our closet should be on the left side and not the right. The…
My Dream of Three
I had always envisioned myself with three children. I had no idea how far apart they would be, what their genders would be or in what order they would go, but I wanted them in my heart, for a long time. There was a time when I thought the third child would never be for…
A Change in Me
My patience is often extremely thin with my kids. Many times I am ready to snap at any moment. I am always thinking about something else I need to do, accomplish, make clean or pick up (laundry or groceries or a kid, you name it). I go through my days rewinding a to-do list, mentally…
I wish she would have stayed
Tim came into the room with me and helped me get undressed. Of course, he is always willing to do that. Only this time it was for a different reason than usual. I was about to give birth to our baby. It was our second baby boy’s birthday and I was both excited, full of…
Oh Monday…
Yesterday we gathered as a family of five and smiled for the camera and laughed and kissed each other’s cheeks. Monday morning came with a vengeance and brought non-listening ears and tears and frustration and new worries for a week ahead. At school. At work. The sunlit counter scattered with the things of a busy…
You Just Never Know… PLEASE Help for Sandy Recovery!
It seems like every few years there is another tragedy or natural disaster where I find myself parked in front of the t.v. watching heart-breaking images of unfathomable events. With this latest storm, “Sandy” I am taken aback by how quickly things can change. And the tears flow when I read stories about mothers losing their children…
Seeing Things Through Their Eyes
Lately I am working on seeing things from other people’s perspective. Particularly my husband’s and my kids’. Especially the kids, who are shorter, and not quite as wise and are still learning and soaking things in every day in some way. I have to try to remember that they do not “know” everything I expect…