Yesterday was weird. I was in a haze for part of the day. I woke up and saw that Trump had won and I cried. No, I did not vote for Hilary either. I am one of those “3rd party” voters that people are pissed at. Funny thing is, I didn’t even vote for one…
Don’t Judge Me Because of My Divorce
My marriage was supposed to work out. It was supposed to be the marriage of all marriages. It was going to last forever and yes, have it’s ups and downs, but we, as a unit, were going to get through all those downs. There would be romance and love and hearts most of the time….
They Go Together
The gray sky covered like a blanket, but not a cozy one. Instead, scratchy and uncomfortable. The water poured from the sky as if someone was up there, emptying buckets from above, full of sharp drops. It all pooled at the entrance to the musty porch, just as it always did. It stopped raining outside for…
“I’m Sorry”
I said it too… A few months before my ex husband and I separated, a mother of one of my kids’ friends told me that she and her husband were divorcing. I stood in her living room and said those two or three words – “I’m sorry.” However, part of me could tell she was…
Feeling it All
I haven’t rearranged the furniture. I haven’t started making the bed. The coffee maker sits in the same place on the counter. The t.v. turns on the same way. Their clothes still hang in the closet. Their toys still litter the floor. But things are missing now. There is less laundry, fewer groceries to buy….
In The Audience at Listen To Your Mother
Last fall I signed on to do Listen To your Mother for the third year with Jennifer. However, life got in the way and I had to let it go for this year. I was saddened by this but also needed the time to get through my own stuff. Thankfully, Jennifer and Ramona were gracious…
The Right Vase
I’ve had this recurring dream a few times where I am in a department store shopping. I am looking in the home department, for a vase or planter for my house and I have something specific in mind. I see many other vases, the shelves are lined with them. Some are colorful, others are drab….
Alone Time
I have to turn on the t.v. because it’s just too quiet without them here. I have it on mostly just for background noise, occasionally I really watch. This helps my brain pretend that it’s not just me and the dog in the house. Or something like that. There are a million things I could do, like clean…
In Case of an Emergency
I sat in the comfortable lobby, filling out the short questionnaire about my medical history, as new age music softly played over the speakers. I was so happy to be in the spa, waiting for my first massage in a while. I needed this relaxation time, badly. I filled out the standard information like my name…
Positive Person
I have always considered myself a pretty positive person, but I know sometimes I can also be like Eeyore. I try to be a glass half full, see the bright side kind of gal, but right now, at certain times, that is level 10 difficult. I was talking with a good friend the other night and she went…