I look at myself anywhere from 5-25 times a day in a mirror. Usually to put in my contact lenses or do my hair or to put make-up on my face. And of course to see how I look in the clothes I put on for any given day. When I was a teenager I…
Terrifying
I had a terrifying dream the other night. It was one of those where you find yourself halfway between the dream and real life and knowing it’s just a dream, but still, you are sort of stuck there. I woke up crying in my bed, the morning light barely starting to show through the blinds….
I Need Her
It’s funny how there are things in life you don’t know you need until you have them. Like for instance, an incing spreader. I used to frost cakes and cupcakes all the time with just a plain ole butter knife. But then my baking life changed EE-mensely when I got a handy dandy icing spreader….
You Capture – SKY
The rain continued to fall slowly last night as I laid my tired body down. I could hear it on the window. pit pat pit pat. This afternoon there were storms all around us but it barely rained here. I have storms inside of me – things I struggle with on the daily. But I’m…
Are Three Kids Too Many?
Tim left today for a ‘business trip’ in which he got to go back ‘home’ and see old co-workers and some family. And don’t even think about trying to find me to rob my house or anything, now that you know this because I have mean, scary neighbors with big guns. I don’t really know…
Imperfect
On the outset my life looks perfect. Right? A wonderful husband who loves and respects me. Three beautiful children, in some people’s ideal order, two boys and a girl. We are surrounded by “stuff,” have a nice home, plenty of food to eat and probably too many clothes to wear. I can take decent pictures…
Weighty Issues
It’s a capped sleeve that no longer fits your arm… It’s a picture of yourself that you don’t want to see… It’s a number on the scale that makes you cry… Last night I cried myself to sleep because I feel SO ungodly fat right now. I know I’m not THAT big, but I’m big…
So, This is What 35 Looks Like
I’m sort of emotional today. I’m officially 35 years old. The other night Tim mentioned something to me about my birthday and I must’ve given him a “look” because then he said, “You don’t really want this one, do you?” He knows me too well. I’ve always loved my birthday. Always. And I still do….
Weekly Weigh In – Week 3
So, this week, not so good. I feel stuck. I keep fluctuating between the same 2-4 lbs. Up and down, back and forth and guess what!? This week – back up 1.2 lbs. I could say a really bad word right now but I don’t have that kind of blog. ; ) Anyway, I teared…
So… I’m Fat
Okay, okay, I know, horrible title. But sometimes, the truth hurts. As I eluded to in yesterday’s post my clothes don’t fit. Also, when I was in the bath last night, I looked like I was still pregnant. And last time I checked, I’m NOT. I was on track, steadily losing weight UNTIL. The Holidays….