Exasperated: –verb (used with object)1.to irritate or provoke to a high degree; annoy extremely
Both boys in ‘time out,’ one who has fallen asleep, thank goodness.
Let me back up (and be very honest)…
The B Man got out of school on Tuesday and things already are not going that well so far.
I’m frustrated because I think I have pretty good kids and I don’t mind them ‘horsing around’ a bit (the boys) but they’ve managed to knock down a lamp each day and if things get too heated Little G ends up biting his older brother (also has basically happened every day).
Today I got REALLY angry and spanked them both. And I don’t like typing that. And I don’t like doing it.
I don’t want to be one of those mothers. I don’t want them to remember me as their mother that spanked them. But I feel like that’s the only way to get their attention these days. I can reason with the six year old but the three year old, no way. I say “stop” and I’m pretty sure he hears “GO!” At least that’s how it seems.
I can’t do this all Summer. Maybe I’m not strong enough or very good at this Mother ‘gig’ but I really can’t.
I mean we have things to do this Summer a lot of the time but not EVERY day and I can’t always go where my friends are going with their kids because Baby K needs a decent nap in the morning. I know we need to get out but some days we WILL be staying in (like today) and I’m just afraid those days will all go like this.
And they can only watch SO much t.v. , you know?
I’m not one to do a lot of crafts with my kids but they do paint, play with play-doh, color, all that good stuff. And I TRY to do some stuff with them. I do NOT sit at the computer all day, even though it may seem that way. We build puzzles, read books, play a game here and there.
But as most of you know, I’m sure, that stuff only lasts so long too.
I love my children, but I LOATHE days like this. They make me feel lonely and mean and leave me very upset.
I feel like I should do better. BE better.
What am I missing?