I have been struggling for a while, trying to balance everything in my life.
Picture me with both arms loaded down with tall stacks of plates. For a while, I was able to handle the stacks okay. Then things started to get wobbly. Then they got so shaky that they were out of control and I could no longer balance anything.
Some days ago the stacks fell. They fell hard. And most of the plates were broken.
I was able to glue many of the plates back together but some of them were too broken and had to go. Some of the plates were ruining the life I have built with my husband. So I trashed them and I have started with new, shorter stacks. Stacks with only the most important plates included.
I could go on and on with this analogy but I just wanted those of you that read here regularly to know that I am okay. Life has no guarantees and it can be really hard at times. My family and I are going through a few struggles right now but we are okay. We are quite good actually. I simply cannot commit the time online that I used to, and that is really all there is to it. Plus, it is really hard to admit that I was spending SO much time online that it was truly affecting those closest to me in a negative way. But I just did. I HAVE admitted it.
I am not sure when I will post here but I am not leaving the blog behind completely. I just will not be on here very much. And I will not be reading other blogs or on social media very much either. This is just where I am right now and the people closest to me need me the most. This means I have to discontinue many of the distractions that kept me from spending time with them and supporting them and just being with them.