I was on edge all week long, stressing over the million-ish
little things that I needed to get done and even one I had already done. Now tell me, how does THAT work? Well, turns out one of the things was not
completely complete. So right after I
crossed it off of my lengthy “to do” list I had to add right back.
So yeah, no pinning a rose on my nose after all.
I was appreciating 6 teachers, getting birthday party invitations out (kinda late, I might add), helping with school projects, registering a child for kindergarten (late again), running errands for said birthday party, making phone calls and well…
…confirming with my doctor that several weeks of physical therapy have done very little good for the ankle that I still cannot use to run.
I want so bad to run again and as I cried to Tim that night, I told him at least half of my stress lately is because I cannot. And I have tried. I just cannot. It still hurts so badly.
So I had a really good cry and afterward I decided to change my attitude and focus on other ways to exercise for now.
Such as yoga. Working my body AND getting some stress relief? Sure, I’ll take it!
There is still hope for my ankle and I am not giving up yet.
Plus, school is almost out and I’m ready for G’s party this Saturday so things are about to lighten up around here.
I cannot wait until my “to do” list says:
“Pack for the beach”
And that is all.
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Tim also said something to me that night that he feels like
I do not always appreciate how good we have it.
And he was not trying to be mean, he was just keeping it real.
And you would not necessarily know it by just reading my words here, but my attitude has been in the dumps lately.
Again, with the no running. I know that has SO much to do with it.
And I WANT to appreciate this amazing family and life I have. Because I really do and it really is. I have the family I always wanted – an amazing husband and three beautiful, healthy children.
And in the end, they will not care how cute the Lego treat bags were or weren't at their 5th birthday party.
Because all they really want is for me to be there, with them, celebrating.
So I’m giving the finger to my “to do” list this week and winging it.
Oh and trading stress for JOY.
And yoga.
Oh Elaine, this so speaks to me. Of course, I do not run, but my husband does and I know how he feels when he can't run, so I can only imagine. But back to my point, I have so been feeling blech and crabby (not to do with being sick, even).
ReplyDeleteI really hope you are able to enjoy the week!!
Yoga is what I turned to when I couldn't run because of my knee always cracking, popping and God knows what else. It makes me feel strong and it really does calm the crazy person that lives in my head rent free! Hope it will help with some of your stress and you will find some happy while you can't run. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteGirl, I;m right there with ya! I always give my to-do list the finger!!! Even when I know I shouldn't, I do it anyway! Perhaps that's why there are no clean clothes & my house is a wreck! But I am spending quality time with my kiddos so I could care less!! Have a fun weekend with the party & Happy 5th birthday to your sweet Little G!!!
ReplyDeleteSometimes its just easier to throw planning to the wind and have a little fun! I always get so stressed out over planning and getting things done that Im not able to truly enjoy what I was planning to begin with. Just breath and have fun!
ReplyDeleteI have felt the same way lately. So overwhelemed and stressed over to-do lists yet I can't figure out how to finish it all. So this week, as I plan my son's party, I'm giving that list the finger too. We'll be there, celebrating, and that's what matters.
ReplyDeleteI love that you gave the finger to your list. Ive been so stressed out lately over little things that at the end of the day dont matter. Good luck with your ankle!
ReplyDeleteAMEN. As much as I love to do lists, I agree, sometimes, you just have to give it the finger. Go, you!
ReplyDeleteLove you friend. Love you. And hugs. xo
ReplyDeleteJoy and yoga sound like the perfect things to have on your list.
ReplyDeleteI was JUST gonna write a post like this. Seriously. I was having this kind of a week last week. It was one of the busiest weeks EVER. It was just crazy. And my attitude was definitely in the crapper. All day long in my head I was complaining. When I was on my way up the stairs for the third time to scold Grace for playing in her bed instead of napping at bedtime I was cursing in my head and thinking, "what next? could it get any harder???"
ReplyDeleteJust then I heard a voice in my head say, "Could your life GET any easier?"
It stopped me dead in my tracks, because in reality, I do have an easy life (but also because the voice wasn't my own). It was a very clear message for me, and I got it.
Yes, life isn't always easy, but I have it so good. I have four healthy kids, a great husband, a wonderful home to live in, food to eat, money in the bank, a safe city to raise my kids, lots of family, etc. The list goes on and on. That voice really changed my attitude.
But it is a something I have to constantly remind myself of too, cuz ya know, I'm human. ;)
I am so sorry about the ankle. I've had knee problems that kept me from running for months at a time. Sometime the only thing that heals it is staying off of it. And that sucks.
I hope that for now the yoga really does the trick for you. :)
Hang in there, my friend. I know how easy it is to focus on the blah. I'm saying a prayer for you and sending you good energy, hoping that your shift to joy is easy and fast! :)
ReplyDeleteGood for you! That is not always easy to do. It is so easy to just always feel behind and not enjoy it. I do so hope your ankle can get better soon
ReplyDeleteGood choice and one great reminder for me! (I was a bit bummed that I ran slower than I wanted to on Saturday - consider me reminded and in my place:) )
ReplyDeleteThere are so many other options and if you keep trying other things, you will find one you love as much as running and before you know it, your ankle will be back and ready.
Hang in there girl, I know how you feel and yes, it sucks beans, big ones, but life is good and this is just one blip in the radar.
xoxoxoxox
I think that yoga & ditching the to-do list will be perfect! Hopefully at the end of the week you'll feel much better and less stressed.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you can't run right now. Maybe yoga will help you to get some of your frustrations out and get some exercise.
ReplyDeleteI hope yoga helps you find some stress relief. I know it's hard to not have that outlet :(
ReplyDeleteLove you girl!
xo
I'm proud of you, it's so hard to let go of that list sometimes! Let us know how the Yoga goes, or have you tried swimming?
ReplyDeleteI think I need to take a page out of your book. I let my to do list get the best of me.
ReplyDeleteOh I understand this so, so well. Just today David asked what was wrong and I said, "I just want to quit my job and be with my kids." This was supposed to be my dream job, but it seems like my dreams have changed. I have to remind myself to be appreciative all the time, then I feel bad because I'm not being appreciative.
ReplyDeleteGood for you for giving the finger to the "to do list". My husband always reminds me how good we have it and sometimes I just need to change my frame of mind. Trading joy for stress seems to be the best bet.
ReplyDeleteI meant trading stree for joy....lol.
DeleteWe are on the same page this week. I just wrote about letting my To Do list go this weekend.
ReplyDeleteHave fun appreciating all the goodness in your life.
And I will be keeping my fingers crossed for your ankle to finally get better so you can run!
First off, bigs (((HUGS))).
ReplyDeleteSecondly, it is so crazy to have read your thoughts here, because...and I am totally not making this up.... I had a huge breakdown on the Saturday night before Mother's Day complete with an ugly cry and all.
I feel you so much here...and I am SO sad that you can't run right now because I know how much it helps. I have just started and was blown away at the stress relief it brought me.
I hope that you heal quickly and that things get better for you really soon.